from the NEXT Art Exhibition in Chicago
"Women," by Michael Hans
When you’re young you have this perfect ideal of what a women should be, you look for this and expect it. With time you realize there is no such thing, you also realize that would be pretty fucking boring. You don’t know what it is your looking for and you wouldn’t until you meet her for the first time.
It is in all the quarks of a woman you will find what is really special and worth a shit. I mean this emotionally, physically, and as person.
A Perfect Women? She is there- horrible flawed and wonderful in all her little imperfections. She is a women- interesting, intelligent and maybe able to grab your mind and balls by her words alone. She will be hard to deal with at times with a strong will and goals of her own. She will make demands and makes you laugh at yourself. They are your equal and better half, all at once.
The great part of a woman is in how she laughs a little funny, how her voice is too high or maybe a little scratchy. She may be a little broken and banged up from life, maybe a little fussy, maybe even a little caddy at times. But these things are enduring and make any person great. No matter how hard you try to stay angry at them you just start laughing at the fact you where upset in the first place.
When you get up in the morning you see that pile of messy hair, smeared makeup, that slim set of hips decorated in lace or maybe a little teeny tiny tummy hanging over her underwear, but it’s really that smile. A smile that makes you forget anything in the world. You look her up and down seeing the perfection in all the little imperfections about her body that just make her pouncable. You could stare from a distance for hours, and never get tired of watching.
Ladies, I say you are all real women. Don’t buy into any status quo, you are sexy, intriguing, and ouh, so intoxicating. Let all show through, have your fun and care little for the people around you that aren’t having fun with you! When you take off your shirt don’t worry about the way you look, just own it. Fuck your weight; shut up about it -you’re sexy as hell. If man doesn’t like it like, find another that does. If your walk is funny and your voice off, just own it. If someone doesn’t like your jokes, find someone who that will. If they don’t feel the passion you have for your passions and care about your independence fuck’em, too. If you’re a little manic and crazy at times, do what I just said the last time -own it.
There is no rule book for beauty or how to be a woman, do you know why? Because every woman is different in look, speech, ideas, and in their soul. That is what is so great! I celebrate it, can’t you celebrate your own thoughts and feelings! That is sexier and more interesting than anything else. So shut the hell up and be yourself, bad behavior and all.
Now beyond lovers, I find women of all ages, varieties, shape, size and personality type intriguing and interesting. For me, the admiration for women goes beyond sexual desire, in fact a lot of the time and most of the time it would wreck the moment even if the moment is spent with your lover. I feel bad for men trapped in seeing one plain point of view, there is more to a woman than being 18-25 years old. I don’t understand how you could look at women in just one stage of there life, they are all interesting and beautiful from childhood till death.
In women my age I see lovers, muses that inspire in me in the greatest of art and the feeling and I can start moving mountains. In elderly women I see a wisdom that bring conversations that last for hours and eyes with a soul that stretch a distance and time further than place you can imagine.
In little women I see daughters filled with innocence, little faces that have yet to be programmed by the world, you want that face to laugh and you want a part in helping her grow up. They inspire even more art.
Then you have older women or elder women. A woman of age has the wisdom and enough stories to make you laugh silly and cry your guts out. You can look into their eyes and see a calm with their spirit that runs so thick you can almost swim in the worlds that wonder and wander around in them as they stare off to the distance. I could talk them for hours, and although an older woman’s charm is different- they are just as charming none the less. Yet again I admire and more art is inspired.
Then you have an completely different stage of women. I personally feel that pregnant women are one of the most beautiful sights on earth. I am not saying every single one, but there is to me a certain spirit to them while they are carrying a child. That “glow” really dose exist and even physically it is attractive. I am not saying sexually either, I am just saying the nude pregnant woman to me can be a really beautiful sight to behold.
When I was a child I would watch women breast feed their children. The parents would always get a little weird with me understandably, but they would ask why I was watching and I would reply, I think it’s pretty. Somehow, I would then always end up explaining myself and they would just smile at me and thank me after the fact. I still like to watch, but I am a little more sensitive to people’s space being a full grown man.
But it’s all still beautiful to me, I don’t know why, but these things always have been. I really like all, there is no side to women that I can’t draw inspiration from.
When I feeling down in life I go to public parks, I look at mothers playing with their children in open fields, I watch and can both see and feel their love for the children. Motherhood is such a beautiful part of life. It always reminds me that there is something worth fighting for in this world. No matter how low I am, in that instant I get it all back and I am ready to take on the world.
I am ooouh so lost in life without a Muse of some kind. It is always a women of some type, whether it being momentarily or a life-long muse. An Ex Roommate of mine shaking his head explained, “Mikey’s brain and thought process is made up of two parts- Women and Art” and my knee jerk replied was “What else is there?….. Well…you forgot occasionally science!” To me there is nothing in this world more interesting, art would be pretty boring without them, but sometimes science, ha ha.
For me there is only one thing that has never disappointed me in life. That is love, the kind of love you can have in another women. I have the kind of imagination that blows everything out of proportion, everything is bigger and more extravagant in my head than in person. But the only thing to never disappoint me is the feelings you can have for another. It is always different than you think it will be and it will be harder on you than anything else in life will be, but it is the one thing also in life that exceeds all the expectations you could ever have about it. No Art, Philosophy, Theology, or thing of monetary value can even come close to that smile when you find it.
It will be the one of the most spiritual experiences in your life as well if you try to be selfless about it, to really make it about them and not you. I mean really be selfless, give and expect nothing more than a smile, love and not be in love- there is a difference. Love is important, being in love is not.
Spirituality to me is not found in a temple or a book, especially not found in following a religion. Spirituality is found in living life, learning and trying to be a better person. You will need others to learn sometimes and they can be a guide to better places if you let love in.
When your love for a woman can make you become a better man, giving up everything you want in life and from her just to get the chance to know that person and expect nothing in return. It’s hard to be selfless to the person you want everything from, being in love means you want their Spirit, Mind, and Body, it’s easy to be selfless to someone you want nothing from. When you can walk away not getting what you wanted and still love them the same and feel no hurt or anger, always have an open door for family even knowing the door for lovers is closed then know you are now for real, for her, for the first time in your life. When something or someone can make you learn to be a little more selfless like that, to me that is a pretty fucking spiritual experience. Fuck your religion and ideologies, just live life and learn! Learn to love, this is one side of love and a lesson along many to learn in life about truly caring.
For me I think this is the kind of lesson only a woman (a very rare lady) could cast a spell of learning on me like that!….
Thank you, Ladies, for the endless inspiration, for being a mother, the closest of friends, my lover, being strong, being sexy, intelligent, unpredictable, sweet, being wise, all the art you inspire in me along with other artists and sometimes being something that drives any man crazy both in good and bad ways.
Most of all, thank you for teaching me and teaching me things everyday, till the day I die. You are amazing and for this broken old soul always a source of inspiration in any package.
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